The White House

The White House

Thursday, November 8, 2012

Too Early for the Winter Blues

Tuesday I went and sat with Olivia's class at lunch. I love that she is so happy to see me. I forgot photos inside, but here are the kiddos outside. It was +5* with a slight breeze. They go out until -20* below. 

The sun had warmed it up for a few hours, but we've had below zero temperatures for a few days now.

Such a moody child. So many things about him are just like his big brother. I do not know if I can survive another Elijah. I'm struggling as it is. 

This little one is always happy. She is a bright star on the darkest days.

Lucas got a free kids meal at Wendy's for his reading log and was hounding me to use it. It was -15* and while we were toasty warm inside I managed to lock the keys in the truck. I've been so distracted lately. Homer came to my rescue.

After we voted we went home and pulled one of Elijah's friends out of the ditch. Teenagers not paying attention or being very smart drove off the road and went 30 feet down a big embankment into the trees earlier in the day. (I came upon them standing in the road not dressed for the weather and gave them a ride home making me late to my Tiger Cub meeting). They are lucky it was only the truck that was hurt. Both are horrible drivers and shouldn't be on the roads. We had to block traffic while Homer pulled him out. What a good husband. Out in the cold helping a neighbor. I wish I would have remember my camera.

We finally got to settle in and see that Obama was declared the presidential winner. Just as we got into a movie the phone rang. Elijah was broke down. His car only had neutral and he was sitting on the side of the road so Homer went back out into the -20 temperatures to tow him home. We finally finished our movie and Elijah feel asleep on the couch with Mandy (who incidentally is a pain in the ass and I can't wait until she is no longer a puppy).

Drove Elijah to school yesterday and he took a photo of the temperature (and me).

I've lost my get-up-and-go (or as I call it, my "give a shit") and haven't gotten a whole lot done this week. Yesterday I worked a fundraiser at school for an hour then came home to scrub and mostly set up this 65 gallon tank. Elijah's big Oscar, Dragonfish and Catfish had long outgrown his 20-gallon tank so I set my old one up downstairs. I still need to add the big rocks which happen to be out in the snowbank (ug!) and wash the outside, but at least they can now swim. (Oscar is a little bigger than your hand. The Dragon is a foot long).

I should have cleaned the glass and taken a better photo. *sigh*


And that was it. I am so over-whelmed by everything that has to be done I'm frozen. I could use a few days to regroup, but that doesn't happen in a house our size. Shoot, if I could just have a few hours alone that would be nice, but since Nick isn't working someone is always here in "my space". Messing up my space and no amount of nagging will change that. Just makes them hate me. That makes me so cranky and I don't want to be the cranky mom so I've got to snap out of it. It is what it is.

Elijah had his appointment with the cardiologist this morning (it's always something sucking my day away). His blood pressure is too high, but his heart looks great so he's not concerned. That's good news, but what we added to our medical debt is giving me so much stress. My husband works all.the.time and we just fall further behind each month. Either someone is sick or something breaks. My house is never going to get finished and that bugs me most of all. 

Blech. Whatever. There are thousands of people out there that have it far worse that I do. Homeless, hungry, dying... I'm not any of those so I just need to appreciate what we have. Hell, I'm setting up 65-gallon fish tanks. How bad can it be? Right? 

I'm just selfish and I want my house done. 

Period. 

4 comments:

Mama Bean said...

Sorry to hear you've run out of shits to give :( I can't believe it is so cold up there already... the cold certainly doesn't help.

Janie said...

Olivia has such a happy smile. That must cheer you up on a cold day.
Alaska kids are ridiculously hardy, playing outside if it's above -20!

Nancy J said...

i think you are "super-Mum!!" and what better place to unload your troubles than with us on blogland. I so like the temperature in the wagon.WOW!!, yes your kids must be extra hardy there.But think on this marvellous thought... eventually all kids grow up and leave home, some soon, some later, some return and leave again, but one day, you and Homer will be in your quiet haven all to the both of you. But not tomorrow, keep your heart strong meantime. Greetings from Jean,p.s. about 23Celsius outside ...

FlowerLady said...

Dear Gayle ~ All that you do for home and family is amazing to me. To keep all that going is a tremendous job and you are doing a great job.

I love that picture of you with the temperature showing above your head. BRRRRR! I'm sitting here barefoot, short sleeves, capri pants, and am a little chilly but it feels GREAT.

By the way, when I got home from work yesterday, there was a pkg. from Alaska. Thank you so much for the goodies. Thanks for having the give-away of rose petal jelly in the first place and for the extras added to the win. I look forward to trying both the rose petal jelly and the Highbush Cranberry, and drinking out of my Denali mug, and playing a game of cards with DH. I can just picture you and your helpers collecting berries and rose petals, and then doing the canning process there in your home. Thank you again.

Hope your day is a good one.

Love and hugs ~ FlowerLady